freezer box.

today when i stayed home sick, i woke up and had zero content in my stomach besides a couple ounces of coke and a quarter of a large french fry from last night. i got up, watched some tivo, cried over some guys, and moved on with my day.

the air was nippy when i pulled the covers off of myself and stretched. i wrapped myself in a sweater and made my way up the stairs. my stomach was making stranger noises than usual, probably a sign that i should eat something.

i honestly stood looking in the refrigerator for a good five minutes until i decided on an apple and some pineapple.

life is much too precious to fret over things like boys and school. sometimes its nice to focus on your hoodie, blanket, and apples.

hello darlings.

tonight i attended this beautiful little event known as the 7th birthday of Lemonjello's coffee shop. My dearest love Tessa Perez sang her magical music. There are upsides and downsides to these sorts of events. Upside: you see people you really love and also some long lost friends. Downside: you see people you wished you would never see again the minute they graduated or stepped out of your life.

all in all, everything went really well. i wore this amazing plaid shirt that i got for christmas from american eagle. this is probably my new favorite shirt. though this is probably not shocking to you, it is to me. i hate fitted shirts, i hate flannel shirts, and i usually am not a fan of plaid, but this is the only exception. and it really helps when someone calls you hot when you wear it, thank you branden beacham.

HOLLA!

contrast.

these days, i find myself changing. everyone changes, we all know that. we can all feel when we're changing. when some things become more important than others. when we are more likely to share things with someone new than an old friend.

i find these things happening. i used to wear so many colors. now, my whole closet and all of my drawers are filled with things black, white, and on occasion, grey. i like it this way. i like sharing things with people i like to share with.

i like to smoke the occasional bowl. i like to clear my head often by sitting in the cold car. i apply for jobs i don't intend on taking. this wasn't me a year ago, but this is me now.

"things are not always, things are not always, how they seem. will you be ready?"